runaway

2012-02-10T10:17:00.001+08:00

Hellooooo.. :D

2012-02-08T20:45:00.002+08:00

"Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can come together."

A part of me don't wish to believe in this. Heh. Siannnnnn.

kkayz, I should try not to be overly sensitive and think too much!
Zzzz...

2012-02-07T22:00:00.002+08:00

Time really flies.
It's been about a month now isn't it?

2012-02-05T07:48:00.000+08:00

These few days when I revise for audit..I think of my internship.

Sigh.

2012-02-02T22:19:00.004+08:00

Random cravings at night..heh.

Sometimes I think my life sucks, but most of the time I'm pretty thankful for some stuffs.
I'm happy for my friend who got into one of the big four. while me?
naa, I don't know where I'm allocated to yet.
emo.

sigh. I gotta look at the brighter side of life.
then again, I shouldn't expect too much. Meh.

2012-01-29T21:29:00.001+08:00

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools, the gifts we've got yeah we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend at least we didn't tend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I got, and what I'm not
And who I am

2012-01-29T10:02:00.001+08:00

20 seconds of insane courage is all you need.

Somewhat I managed to settle some stuffs yest night and I'm glad I did :)

2012-01-27T00:38:00.005+08:00

It's been two weeks.
Seriously, what went wrong.

I still haven't forget the day when you said you wanted to draw the lines.
Now it's clear, isn't it?

Back to strangers.

I really hated it.

Everytime when I see you online, I really wanted to say Hi. But I didn't, cause' I don't wanna receive your cold replies again. Besides, there's nothing much we can talk about isn't it? All those serious talks..I just don't like it.
I bet you don't even wanna talk to me ever again.

If I could turn back the time, I would.

I'd turn back to where we're really friends, and not strangers.

2012-01-26T10:26:00.001+08:00

"These words have no meaning if we cannot find the feeling."

2012-01-25T13:49:00.001+08:00

2012-01-24T21:48:00.002+08:00

Everything feels....weird. to me. idk.
I seriously have mixed feelings about these.

2012-01-22T00:24:00.001+08:00

2012-01-17T10:35:00.002+08:00

Hmm...

2012-01-16T06:45:00.001+08:00

Everyone has their point of view..
And only a handful of people tries to put themselves in other people's shoes to see their world.

2012-01-13T23:20:00.001+08:00

Secretly hoping we can talk things out, and back like we're used to.
Guess it's gonna be hard :(

Hurry come back from China!!! :(

2012-01-13T17:58:00.001+08:00

It's been a pretty productive day. I've completed a few tutorials :) hehe

2012-01-13T00:01:00.001+08:00

Sigh.

2012-01-08T01:37:00.005+08:00

What's wrong now?

Really hate the way we are conversing now.

Or is it I'm the only one who's feeling this way?
Am I thinking too much again?

Damn it.

2012-01-08T01:35:00.000+08:00

Drowning.

2012-01-06T23:48:00.006+08:00

Honestly speaking, I'm tired of making the effort.

URGH.

I JUST WANNA RANT. NOW.

I'm better now. All I needed was sleep, and I'll be fine.
Every day is a new start and I tend to forget everything bad that has happened the day before.
So, yeap.

2012-01-06T23:43:00.001+08:00

It's like a rollercoaster ride.

"Sometimes life can be like a rollercoaster ride
It's like you're going along, and everything seems cool...
And it's not like you're looking down but
You're not necessarily looking up...
to see who's really in control.

I've had my ups and downs and I've had moments when it felt like I was being twisted and turned...
When my life seemed to be upside down and inside out and every which way.

It's kinda like being on a rollercoaster,
If you don't get on the ride...
you won't experience the adventure."

2012-01-06T16:19:00.005+08:00

From a distance, I watched three kids having scooter race. Reminds me of those times I had when I was younger..playing with my brother and cousin. I miss those times.

Now I feel so old.

Well, maybe, it's just the mentality. Meh.

Ugrhh. I'm stuck at writing an argumentative essay for CRS.
I hate writing those kind of debate stuffs. Sometimes it really bores me out.
Why do they even bother debating when these type of never really comes to a concrete conclusion?
To me, all these endless debating is just a waste of time.

Peace out.

2012-01-02T16:39:00.003+08:00

http://52mmnts.me/
52 Moments. Gonna try this challenge once it's up.

http://www.color-scope.com
Hmmm...this is somewhat accurate, I guess. Hahaha.

2011-12-29T23:03:00.002+08:00

i used to possess a well; anything you could think of, it was in there, and all you had to do was call it forth, like “happiness, come to me” and it would.

2011-12-28T23:03:00.002+08:00

The feeling of helplessness really sucks.
It sucks not being able to console people when they're down.
All I can offer is space and a pair of listening ear.

I believe that when a person is down, what he/she really needs most is space.
A space to clear one's mind and think properly again.

2011-12-26T18:34:00.000+08:00

So, I've came up with my New Year's Resolution for 2012! :)

- Stay committed to dance throughout the year. (With the exception of exam periods.)
- Practice piano every night. Even if it's just a few minutes.
- Get at least two best-shot-of-the-month for photog.
- Don't splurge whenever I have the money. Save more!
- Smile more often.
- Stop PMS on people. They don't deserve such treatment. (hahaha oops! xD)
- Last but not least, STAY COMMITTED IN WHATEVER I DO!!

2011-12-24T02:20:00.002+08:00

I realized, some things are really hard to say it verbally.
It takes quite a sum of courage to speak it out.

Ahh, so embarrassing.

2011-12-22T10:26:00.001+08:00

Incomplete Manifesto for Growth by Bruce Mau

Allow events to change you.
You have to be willing to grow. Growth is different from something that happens to you. You produce it. You live it. The prerequisites for growth: the openness to experience events and the willingness to be changed by them.

Forget about good.
Good is a known quantity. Good is what we all agree on. Growth is not necessarily good. Growth is an exploration of unlit recesses that may or may not yield to our research. As long as you stick to good you’ll never have real growth.

Process is more important than outcome.
When the outcome drives the process we will only ever go to where we’ve already been. If process drives outcome we may not know where we’re going, but we will know we want to be there.

Love your experiments (as you would an ugly child).
Joy is the engine of growth. Exploit the liberty in casting your work as beautiful experiments, iterations, attempts, trials, and errors. Take the long view and allow yourself the fun of failure every day.

Go deep.
The deeper you go the more likely you will discover something of value.

Capture accidents.
The wrong answer is the right answer in search of a different question. Collect wrong answers as part of the process. Ask different questions.

Study.
A studio is a place of study. Use the necessity of production as an excuse to study. Everyone will benefit.

Drift.
Allow yourself to wander aimlessly. Explore adjacencies. Lack judgment. Postpone criticism.

Begin anywhere.
John Cage tells us that not knowing where to begin is a common form of paralysis. His advice: begin anywhere.

Everyone is a leader.
Growth happens. Whenever it does, allow it to emerge. Learn to follow when it makes sense. Let anyone lead.

Harvest ideas.
Edit applications. Ideas need a dynamic, fluid, generous environment to sustain life. Applications, on the other hand, benefit from critical rigor. Produce a high ratio of ideas to applications.

Keep moving.
The market and its operations have a tendency to reinforce success. Resist it. Allow failure and migration to be part of your practice.

Slow down.
Desynchronize from standard time frames and surprising opportunities may present themselves.

Don’t be cool.
Cool is conservative fear dressed in black. Free yourself from limits of this sort.

Ask stupid questions.
Growth is fueled by desire and innocence. Assess the answer, not the question. Imagine learning throughout your life at the rate of an infant.

Collaborate.
The space between people working together is filled with conflict, friction, strife, exhilaration, delight, and vast creative potential.

____________________.
Intentionally left blank. Allow space for the ideas you haven’t had yet, and for the ideas of others.

Stay up late.
Strange things happen when you’ve gone too far, been up too long, worked too hard, and you’re separated from the rest of the world.

Work the metaphor.
Every object has the capacity to stand for something other than what is apparent. Work on what it stands for.

Be careful to take risks.
Time is genetic. Today is the child of yesterday and the parent of tomorrow. The work you produce today will create your future.

Repeat yourself.
If you like it, do it again. If you don’t like it, do it again.

Make your own tools.
Hybridize your tools in order to build unique things. Even simple tools that are your own can yield entirely new avenues of exploration. Remember, tools amplify our capacities, so even a small tool can make a big difference.

Stand on someone’s shoulders.
You can travel farther carried on the accomplishments of those who came before you. And the view is so much better.

Avoid software.
The problem with software is that everyone has it.

Don’t clean your desk.
You might find something in the morning that you can’t see tonight.

Don’t enter awards competitions.
Just don’t. It’s not good for you.

Read only left-hand pages.
Marshall McLuhan did this. By decreasing the amount of information, we leave room for what he called our "noodle."

Make new words.
Expand the lexicon. The new conditions demand a new way of thinking. The thinking demands new forms of expression. The expression generates new conditions.

Think with your mind.
Forget technology. Creativity is not device-dependent.

Organization = Liberty.
Real innovation in design, or any other field, happens in context. That context is usually some form of cooperatively managed enterprise. Frank Gehry, for instance, is only able to realize Bilbao because his studio can deliver it on budget. The myth of a split between "creatives" and "suits" is what Leonard Cohen calls a ‘charming artifact of the past.’

Don’t borrow money.
Once again, Frank Gehry’s advice. By maintaining financial control, we maintain creative control. It’s not exactly rocket science, but it’s surprising how hard it is to maintain this discipline, and how many have failed.

Listen carefully.
Every collaborator who enters our orbit brings with him or her a world more strange and complex than any we could ever hope to imagine. By listening to the details and the subtlety of their needs, desires, or ambitions, we fold their world onto our own. Neither party will ever be the same.

Take field trips.
The bandwidth of the world is greater than that of your TV set, or the Internet, or even a totally immersive, interactive, dynamically rendered, object-oriented, real-time, computer graphic–simulated environment.

Make mistakes faster.
This isn’t my idea — I borrowed it. I think it belongs to Andy Grove.

Imitate.
Don’t be shy about it. Try to get as close as you can. You’ll never get all the way, and the separation might be truly remarkable. We have only to look to Richard Hamilton and his version of Marcel Duchamp’s large glass to see how rich, discredited, and underused imitation is as a technique.

Scat.
When you forget the words, do what Ella did: make up something else … but not words.

Break it, stretch it, bend it, crush it, crack it, fold it.

Explore the other edge.
Great liberty exists when we avoid trying to run with the technological pack. We can’t find the leading edge because it’s trampled underfoot. Try using old-tech equipment made obsolete by an economic cycle but still rich with potential.

Coffee breaks, cab rides, green rooms.
Real growth often happens outside of where we intend it to, in the interstitial spaces — what Dr. Seuss calls "the waiting place." Hans Ulrich Obrist once organized a science and art conference with all of the infrastructure of a conference — the parties, chats, lunches, airport arrivals — but with no actual conference. Apparently it was hugely successful and spawned many ongoing collaborations.

Avoid fields.
Jump fences. Disciplinary boundaries and regulatory regimes are attempts to control the wilding of creative life. They are often understandable efforts to order what are manifold, complex, evolutionary processes. Our job is to jump the fences and cross the fields.

Laugh.
People visiting the studio often comment on how much we laugh. Since I’ve become aware of this, I use it as a barometer of how comfortably we are expressing ourselves.

Remember.
Growth is only possible as a product of history. Without memory, innovation is merely novelty. History gives growth a direction. But a memory is never perfect. Every memory is a degraded or composite image of a previous moment or event. That’s what makes us aware of its quality as a past and not a present. It means that every memory is new, a partial construct different from its source, and, as such, a potential for growth itself.

Power to the people.
Play can only happen when people feel they have control over their lives. We can’t be free agents if we’re not free.

2011-12-22T01:56:00.004+08:00

Gotta stop the habit of thinking too much!

2011-12-16T13:29:00.000+08:00

2011-12-14T00:33:00.001+08:00

Why is life so complicated?

2011-12-09T04:43:00.001+08:00

Three weeks of holidays!! (Y)

2011-12-01T06:06:00.000+08:00

Everyone's thinking out loud these days..

2011-11-30T08:25:00.001+08:00

2011-11-29T22:30:00.002+08:00

2011-11-27T03:28:00.002+08:00

It's alright to dream once in awhile.

2011-11-07T07:52:00.000+08:00

You can't choose what stays and what fades away..

2011-11-04T08:31:00.002+08:00

Drowning in these illusions,
We struggle to keep afloat.

2011-11-01T23:27:00.001+08:00

Sometimes you don't know if these feelings can be trusted.

2011-10-12T01:50:00.002+08:00

A number of people do actually mind what other people think about themselves.
I personally feel that why should we actually care about what others think? I mean, it's YOUR own life that you're living in. Your life revolves around YOU, not about OTHER people. Why should you be bothered by what they think?
You shouldnt let their opinions affect your decisions in life!

2011-10-04T20:43:00.001+08:00

2011-09-24T23:50:00.002+08:00

Everything's slowly fading away..

Nothing really last forever.

2011-09-22T12:35:00.001+08:00

2011-09-14T00:00:00.000+08:00

2011-09-13T18:25:00.000+08:00

Loneliness is underrated.

2011-09-03T17:57:00.001+08:00

2011-08-26T12:33:00.001+08:00

2011-08-23T17:09:00.000+08:00

2011-08-22T12:00:00.000+08:00

All of us should probably stop emphasizing how miserable our life is. The more you think about it, the more you'll suffer.
Why not feign a smile and act happy instead?

2011-08-21T22:13:00.001+08:00

Will there ever be a day when we live life as usual without complaining?

Nope.

2011-08-21T18:08:00.002+08:00

Being someone's first or second choice, does it really matter?
I don't understand why some people are so bothered by what other people think of them.

2011-08-21T18:07:00.001+08:00

2011-08-19T00:00:00.000+08:00

"People come, people go – they’ll drift in and out of your life, almost like characters in a favorite book. When you finally close the cover, the characters have told their story and you start up again with another book, complete with new characters and adventures. Then you find yourself focusing on the new ones, not the ones from the past."
— Nicholas Sparks (The Rescue)

Nothing really last forever, isn't it so?

2011-08-18T10:59:00.005+08:00

Define 'being fake'.

I see lots of people complaining how 'fake' people are these days.
Comeon', just because they don't show you the other side of them, doesn't mean they 'are fake'.
Everyone has at least two sides of them, which is so-called the inner and outer personality.
Inner personality -- They act like themselves only when they are with people whom they are comfortable with.
Outer personality -- yea, your so-called 'being fake'. It might seems to you they are not genuinely kind and caring etc, but seriously, it's called being polite. Not fake.

I don't know how to go about elaborating on that. Oh well, you can just read up more about it online. Heh.

2011-08-14T15:22:00.003+08:00

2011-08-13T18:24:00.002+08:00

2011-08-13T00:00:00.004+08:00

I need a wake up call. It's time to get back to reality.
But I prefer my little own world :(

2011-08-10T20:10:00.000+08:00

2011-08-09T01:06:00.001+08:00

2011-08-07T22:24:00.000+08:00

We all wear masks, everyone, everyday and, sometimes we wear them so much, we forget who we really are.
And sometimes if we are lucky, someone's comes along and shows us who we really wanna be. Who we should be.

2011-08-06T21:20:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHHA TOTALLY.

2011-08-01T22:37:00.002+08:00

It's the choice that we make, makes us who we are.

2011-07-30T14:20:00.000+08:00

2011-07-28T01:15:00.002+08:00

There's too much to think about.

2011-07-14T23:21:00.004+08:00

I don't know, but everything really seems so wrong. It feels as if I did not make the right decision.

I realised, life just gets harder when you follow your heart's desires.

2011-07-06T19:39:00.002+08:00

At some point in time, I get tired of socializing. I find it hard to get people think that I'm happy and fine.

I'm dead tired. I just wanna sleep forever.

2011-07-06T11:43:00.002+08:00

I regretted voicing out my opinion. It's like, I don't wanna ruin our friendship, but sometimes it's just so hard not to voice out my opinion. Meh.

2011-07-03T01:04:00.002+08:00

Why some people just don't get that everyone has different takes on matters?
Don't they know each of us is UNIQUE AND DIFFERENT?
People AREN'T the SAME. You don't walk down the street and find people looking exactly alike and have the same DNA, do you? You will only find people who are SIMILAR to each other in some ways -- like looks and personality.
So what makes you think that EVERYONE HAS THE SAME OPINION AS YOU DO?

Some might have the same opinion as you, but not all.

Don't ASSUME.

2011-07-03T00:53:00.002+08:00

Ladies/Girls, don't you hate it when you're having PMS and every little things that people do, which doesn't go your way, annoys you real bad?

2011-06-29T00:01:00.001+08:00

I wonder what the future holds.

2011-06-28T04:56:00.000+08:00

2011-06-22T13:00:00.001+08:00

2011-06-20T22:36:00.002+08:00

Photography, Piano or Dance.
Gotta give up one of them, cause I don't have enough days in a week.

You know, there's a saying, if you really have a passion for something, no matter what, you'll make time for it. Urghh..ikr.

It's hard to make a choice :(

2011-06-18T09:59:00.003+08:00

For me, my definition of living a good life is when I get at least ten hours of sleep in an air-conditioned room, and having someone serve me my Mcdonald hotcake meal with ice milo in the morning. mmmmm....

Life's good. Today.

2011-06-17T23:38:00.003+08:00

I'm trying to see things from a different perspective.

I need some inspiration.

2011-06-16T08:50:00.004+08:00

It's easier to deceive people than yourself.
Why? Cause' no one really knows if you really lied to them.
They'll still take your words for real anyway.

No one can really lie to themselves.
One would think of every reason to believe that lie, but seriously, the truth will just hit you one day.

2011-06-15T22:37:00.001+08:00

"Be careful of what you wish for, it might just come true."

Who actually cares about your thoughts? No one. No one bothers.
They act like they do, but honestly, all they care is about themselves.
They put themselves at their own interests first, then you.
So, heck what other people think of you, just do whatever you feel like it.